On a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I feel fine now but I know I’m not, there’s nothing I can do about it and I’m not so sure why I’m feeling this way. One moment I can be perfectly normal and the next moment I find myself tearing at the thought of what my life has become and what could have been. I want to be myself again and feel what it’s like to be genuinely happy. Which is why I miss the carefree days in HC so much. Regardless of all the shit that happened to me even while I was in HC I know there’s always a place for me and I belonged somewhere. Now worse shit happens and I’m all alone. Wish I could undo/restart my life~
